3 Consider him who endured such opposition from sinful men, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart. 4 In your struggle against sin, you have not yet resisted to the point of shedding your blood. 5 And you have forgotten that word of encouragement that addresses you as sons: "My son, do not make light of the LORD's discipline, and do not lose heart when he rebukes you, 6 because the LORD disciplines those he loves, and he punishes everyone he accepts as a son." 7 Endure hardship as discipline; God is treating you as sons. For what son is not disciplined by his father? 8 If you are not disciplined (and everyone undergoes discipline), then you are illegitimate children and not true sons. 9 Moreover, we have all had human fathers who disciplined us and we respected them for it. How much more should we submit to the Father of our spirits and live! 10 Our fathers disciplined us for a little while as they thought best; but God disciplines us for our good, that we may share in his holiness. 11 No discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful. Later on, however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have been trained by it.
Went to church for the first time in too long on Sunday. Heard an amazing sermon. Again, I don't know why I am always so surprised. He knows what He is doing with me. :) Jeff talked about how God discipline's us with a strong and sturdy hand because he is our Father. He even went as far to make the reference of relationships. That God is disciplining us for becoming so infatuated with our relationship instead of our relationship with Him that he removes that relationship to remind us that He should be our only idol. I feel like that is a really strong accusation or belief, and I'm not sure I 100% agree with it, but I feel like it couldn't hurt me one bit to put my focus in check. So that's what I'm doing. I even signed up for a woman's ministry class to better my understanding on my role as a woman of Christ. I don't know if I believe in the "firm fist" of all of this, but I know it can only help me go in the right direction.
Here's to starting over with my relationship with God. Only good can come of it. THAT, I believe.